Wednesday, August 22, 2012
This was the day when you were going to show me how to prepare squid for dining. But you never arrived. Slicing into rings; stuffing with brown rice, snow peas, and red peppers; deep frying the tentacles—the possibilities, you told me, but you were absent. I was afraid of the squid, but once we started seeing each other, and you convinced me of your culinary skills, I started believing there was no food to be afraid of. Now, you’re gone. I called your house, you weren’t there. I called your work, nothing. The mail came and, there it was, a letter from you, signed and dated yesterday, multiple pages, blue ink on both sides. It’s not working out, you needed to move on—but nothing about the squid. Once you realized that I wasn’t the one for you, I suppose cuisine was secondary. Now, though, whenever I think of squid, I’ll think of this, and be distraught. As food, squid will be nonexistent, just as you now apparently are. I’ll be left to wonder, what happened, did I do something specific to make you disappear. Perhaps someday we’ll meet again, say, hey, how’re you, but I see elusiveness, you only appearing in my fading memory, as I eventually question you existed.